A martyr no longer...

It is with great regret that I relinquish my marytrdom. Whenever Tim went out to play music or see his friends, I definitely took on the role of a mom martyr. Now I can no longer claim that I never go out after my bender last week. I went out every night last week (except Monday). By Thursday I was done, but it felt so good to pull out of the driveway by myself and be an adult in the world for a change. Tuesday was dinner with friends at Diva in Davis Square, Wednesday was drinks at Masa in Woburn with my new Winchester mom friends, Thursday was dinner with C'town moms at Figs and Friday was watching Tim play at the Middle East with the Brendan Boogie Band.

Two babies, a dog and a mom

This blog needs a new title. Keeping up with my updating every six months-- I am happy to announce the arrival of Cameron Paul, five months ago. A lot has  happened since then but we are finally getting settled. Now Tim and I are just trying to keep the boat afloat by staying in a routine and staying somewhat sane. It's crazy how now I am completely envious when Tim takes off on Saturday morning to go to the dump. The dump! How exciting! I think as I watch him pull down the driveway- alone in the car, while I try to ignore Nora's 50th request for a "snacky" and Cameron is puking all over my shoulder. 

After a few Saturdays of this, the resentment had just built up way too high so I hired a babysitter for Saturday mornings so I could get in on this kid-free errand running. It was the best idea I ever had. It felt so good to actually take care of some shit instead of starting a project and then stopping it five minutes later. I filed old papers in our office, and Emily our babysitter was out pushing Nora on the swings. Now, you would think that I would rather be outside playing with Nora, but at that moment I was more than happy to let someone else take care of that while I sat inside. There was just something satisfying starting with a big pile of papers, and when I was done the papers were gone. There's very little that's tangible like that when you take care of kids all day.